1. Sandy, my friend, thank you for sharing so openly and honestly from your heart. We each have different storms we’re going through or have gone through in the past. I love that we don’t have to pretend that we are so together this side of eternity. I know the Lord will use your story to impact others.

  2. Sandy,
    Thank you for sharing this. It’s good to know I’m not alone. I’ve been on medication for a few months, and many of my symptoms are gone, but some I still battle. It makes me wonder if I am crazy sometimes. I’m scared to tell my doctor that I still have symptoms, but scared not to. Thank God for a patient husband!

  3. Wow, thanks for sharing. My mom struggled with major depression for years, and it went untreated for several years because she was from the generation that “Christians don’t get depressed”. I know God is going to use you to touch others’ lives.

  4. Thanks for sharing this post. As I read, I thought to myself…hummm, is she talking about me?

    I have suffered with major depression on and off for about 25 years. I’ve been told…it’s a “chemical imbalance…take this pill, take that pill.” I have taken so many different medications, makes my head spin.
    There have also been times where the medication has stopped me from feeling anything at all…sorrow, pain, love and joy. Obviously, it was the wrong medication for me.

    As a result, I have struggled for the past 8 years to do this on my own…no medication. Not working!!

    I must admit, when clinically diagnosed, I was relieved to know that I wasn’t crazy. As I read through this post, I couldn’t help but realize…yes, chemical imbalance…but sometimes “life’s circumstances” cause depression.

    I’ve just realized the misconception I have had regarding medication…take it and all will go away, all will get better. This is so far from the truth.

    What the medication does is help us think a little more rationally, cope…but in order for all to work together we must just “be still” and listen to God.

    For the first time…I see,I have been trying to do it on my own…no medication…no God…the result…total helplessness…I am broken!!!

    Don’t misunderstand, I’ve prayed, believe me I’ve prayed! The problem…I haven’t “listened” It is time…a visit to my doctor and to Listen!!!

    Wow, what a revelation!!! Thanks Sandy from the bottom of my heart.

  5. Wow, it sounded like you were describing me in my own car screaming at my own children when they were younger. I think this is more common than we women would like to admit. But God is good and can use all different ways to heal us. Thanks for sharing your story.

  6. ummm, no surprise here, you’ve captured my heart here. I am praising God with you today for His freedom, His sovereignty and even for the storm that makes the rainbow brighter.

    In a weird but neat sort of way, meeting you makes me feel more unalone. Know what I mean?

  7. I had no idea you went through this after you adopted Elijah and then Elliana. We lost touch there for awhile and I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you.

    Thank you so much for sharing your heart and story so openly. I’m sure it will help others.

    I love you!

  8. Dearest Sandy,
    “I waited patiently for the Lord, and He turned to me and heard my cry.”
    I have been standing on that scripture for a good month now – sometimes saying it 10 times an hour.
    Thank you Sandy. Since I lost my job in July 2007, I have dealt with many different forms of grief. My life took a radical turn. And as I sank a little deeper each day, a voice somewhere within me kept saying . . . you need to get back on the Prosac. I thought it must certainly be a voice that needed rebuking. So that is what I did – continually.
    The ‘dances’ you did to earn the Lord’s favor to overcome your own circumstances sound so familiar to my own cha-cha. I think I will now listen to that voice that I’ve been rebuking. God’s voice and healing comes in so many different ways.
    After I read your blog this morning, I thanked the Lord and got right on the phone to my doctor to get a prescription refill called in to my drugstore. It may not resolve all of my issues . . . but I’m certain the Lord has spoken through you to me today!
    God Bless you girl!
    Much love,

  9. Thank you for your honesty and your vulnerability!

    I am always encouraged when I see God use ALL things for good and how He redeems and restores!!!

    PS — i can relate!!!

    Big hug!!


  10. Sandy, this is such a powerful message that so many Christians need to hear. I know for a fact that many people who deal with eating disorders or food addiction also suffer from depression. It is sometimes due to the eating disorder but it can also be one of the underlying reasons they are struggling with food in the first place. So I hope you don’t mind but I referred the members on my site to this awesome post of yours.
    Warm regards

  11. Wow, nearly most of your post could have been written by me! :o) It’s a comfortable feeling knowing that I am not along in this and we can blossom in God’s grace regardless of what the devil throws in our path. Thank you for sharing your testimony, God bless you for that!

    This reminds me of a post I wrote a couple months ago, you can check it out if you want to. This is my Story

    <3 Keep writing, you inspire me!

  12. Thanks for sharing this, Sandy, your honestly and frankness in sharing what you went through will help anyone who is in that place, and reads this article.

    Your struggle to find out what was wrong, while refusing to accept that it could be depression, is also typical for so many of us who have been down that road.

    You should see my diary from 1990, page after page of entries as I tried to work out what was wrong with me. Did I need to see a physio because of the very bad yet hard to explain muscular aches and pains, did I need to get my ears checked, did I have chronic fatigue syndrome, was it a spiritual attack? Did I need to fast and pray more, did I need to give up something from my life?

    Yet in the end, it was just severe depression, causing all of the above.

    That scene where you shouted at your kids, that was so heart breaking. I can relate to what they went through, but even more to the anguish you felt afterwards after seeing your control slip away.

    Praise the Lord for your courage to face the truth and get the help you needed to recover.

    God bless

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