I Can’t Hear Anything
“I’m absolutely convinced that nothing—nothing living or dead, angelic or demonic, today or tomorrow, high or low, thinkable or unthinkable—absolutely nothing can get between us and God’s love because of the way that Jesus our Master has embraced us.” Romans 8:38-39 The Message
I can’t hear anything right now.
I have two hours while the baby sleeps to write this post and I got nothin’. Zilch. Nada. Crickets.
So I decide to shift from blog-writing to lesson-preparation for the Wednesday night class I’m teaching. Maybe that will afford me some inspiration.
Searching for inspiration…
Nope. It’s a no-go. In fact, my condition has just worsened.
Now, not only do I have nothing for my post, but my hodge-podge of rough notes refuse to flow nicely into even a coherent, logical outline…much less an hour-long class lesson.
Or a brand new blog post.
The irony is that both my blog post and my Wednesday night class are on the subject of hearing the voice of God. You’d think maybe I could access said Voice to help me out a little here, eh?
There are many possible reasons for the silence. Maybe I’m too distracted. Maybe there is spiritual warfare. Maybe God’s trying to teach me something.
And unless God reveals it to me in the next hour and forty five minutes, I’ve lost my window of opportunity to write.
(By the way, I know God is not bound by time, and all…but sometimes I wonder if He forgets that I AM!)
Anyway, so I grab a book I’m reading by John Eldredge, called Walking With God, and start browsing the areas I’ve highlighted, hoping maybe John can offer some ideas for this post.
Coincidentally, (or not) I come across a chapter where he’s struggling with the exact same thing: Needs to write. Limited time. Can’t hear God. Hasn’t the foggiest idea why He can’t hear God…
OK…I may be onto something here.
Eldredge wrestles through the various possibilities for the silence. He confesses his frustrations and his questions. He never fully understands why he can’t hear God on that particular day, but
he decides his inability to hear God will not be the verdict about how he is doing with God that day or how God feels about him at that moment.
Whoa. This is huge. How often have I judged my position with God based solely on how I feel that day, rather than on what the scriptures say?
Just this morning during the worship service at church, I was feeling-not-so-good about myself. Nothing major. Just some areas where I think I’ve failed the last few days. Areas of my thought life. Areas privy to God and me only. But it was enough to make me want to distance myself from God a little. Mostly, because I felt somewhat ashamed—maybe a little unworthy of His love, His anointing and His forgiveness. And because of these feelings of inadequacy, my heart wanted to withhold from fully worshiping God.
OK…now I KNOW I’m onto something here.
During worship, I had to meditate purposely and consciously on the truths of God’s word.
“We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” (II Corinthians 10:5)
Namely, that I worship God, not because I am worthy but because He is worthy.
“Great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; his greatness no one can fathom.” (Psalm 145:3)
Once I dispelled the lie the Enemy was planting in my head and replaced it with the Truth of God’s word, worship flowed freely. It was quite awesome.
So maybe the whole reason for the silence today with this blog post–and the class prep–is to remind me that hearing from God (or not hearing from God) on any given day does not determine my position with Him. That struggling with sinful temptations does not reduce His love for me in the least. And that even the apparent silence of God can lead me right where God wants me: securely resting in His amazing grace.
Oh…and look at that! I’ve written a blog post, too!
That was so good! I love it when God reveals things in the opposite way from what we are expecting! Those are the times, for me at least, that He shows just how awesome He is and confirms the promises in His Word. Great post!
Well done..I love it..I’ve been in that position many times…glad to see it from that point of view.
This really hit the spot. HIT.THE.SPOT.
I hear you my friend!!!
God’s faithfulness is pretty incredible. Not only did He work some things out for you, He gave you a post and all within nap time!!!
Thank you for sharing your heart!
Today, as I deal with the silence of God, some doubt, and some worries – I find myself drawing a blank on a blog post, too. So I just let the profound words of others grace my blog today – in the form of encouraging quotes 🙂
Great post, Sandy!
Have a nice week 🙂
I was wondering where you were going at the beginning but you ended up perfectly! Isn’t His grace simply amazing? So many times it’s easy to buy into the enemy’s lies. I know cause I’ve been there, done that. But what His Word says is true regardless of my feelings. I’m so glad you were then able to worship freely. It’s all about Him. I’m thankful for that.
Have a good day, my friend.
Thanks for your heart today Sandy – it’s always good to be reminded that who we are and what we can do for Christ . .. is not dependent on what our emotional (and so often untruthful) mind can tell us. He sits with us in the silence too.
I too deal with spiritual warfare everyday. If I could only keep those windows closed! UGH! I have put off doing my precept homework today so I will stop searching the net and get down with GOD. Thanks for you post.
WOW…that was RICH!! I love how the simplicity of straight “scripture” can reveal the lies we believe! Those are some verses that I will certainly have to add to my memorization list!
Thanks for your continued transparency…it’s powerful against our Enemy’s tactics!
I’m so glad I stumbled upon your blog this morning. First, you are too funny, second … I can identify.
For me I have noticed that I have a harder time hearing from the Lord when it is concerning ME! Not the conviction part, but I mean a word from Him. Sigh … yes, CRICKETS. lol
Bless you today!
I”m really enjoying your blog! Thanks so much for your complement! I will be a frequent visitor! Blessings to you and your beautiful family!
i’m sitting here trying to decifer the thing that I think God wants me to share and having NO words or logical flow to actually do so…when I stumble upon this post of yours and chuckle. God’s provision is always perfect…even if it’s not at all what I expected. Thanks for sharing the silence : )
This really spoke to me today. Thank you so much for this post!